We are living in a time when you have to stay looking over youe shoulder for danger.
I’m actually afraid to leave my house. It is the Christmas season, where people use to share the joy and love of the season. I use to love the Holiday season. My husband and I would make sure to jet home, set up the tree, put out the decorations on the house and yard. Get every thing festive for my kids and mostly , the grand children. We would do all the shopping early, put gifts under the tree. Then back on the road to work. We haven’t been home for Christmas day in three years. This year we’re actually home and the true Spirit of the holiday just isn’t their FOR ME
now daysWhat is happening to the world I lived in before I became a truck driver. Most of the time when I would be out and about, I us to keep a smile on my face when approaching unknown individual , rather in passing or an event. Now I practically walk with my Eyes down, WHILE STILL PAYING ATTENTION TO MY SURROUNDINS. Because it has become hazardous the your health to be polite to others.
I believe just because I’m having less than a perfect day doesn’t mean that I should use others as a bunching bag. Nor, should I take my problems out on an unsuspected person.
Now days when you smile at the random person on the street or greet them with a kind gustier , you receive a look of anger as if they would rather slap you before returning a kind word.
About a week before we came home, I was shopping at a Wal-mart in a unfamiliar location , and a situation accord that breaks my hart to even remember let alone talk about.
I was in the check out line putting my items on the conveyor. I got to close to the person in front of me, so as I was unloading my basket they pushed my basket back into me, with force. This has never happened to me, ever. I was shocked, amazed and saddened all at once. Because you just never know what people are capable of in the word we live in today. I don’t want to be hurt or disrespect by anyone and I also don’t want to be put in a situation where I have to fight to protect myself from the evilness’ that is surrounding me. It really does saddens me that I can’t project the happiness a peace that I feel within, onto others, without the fear of harm and meanness.
I learned at an early age that their are some people that truly love to be miserable and they thrive on making others unhappy. I could never understand people like this. I believe We should want to have the best life for ourselves and others. I love me so there fore I love everyone. Now that don’t mean I just put my self out here fore people to step on me. We all have good and bad days. We all go thru thing . We know when there is a person in our path that needs to be kept at arms length (with some kindness) or avoid them all together. BUT when you can’t go on a bike ride in an unfamiliar place without fear of harm, something is really wrong. Or when you can’t stop at any random store in an unfamiliar place without feeling as if you may be harmed in ways. Something is wrong,
Now, I’m home to stay, off the road as a truck driver but I will still be on the road me and Pearl. Pearl is my canon. We have enjoyed the views we’ve taken photos of and I’m not going to stop traveling, photography is my joy and profession. So pray for me, I’m embarking on a new part of my life’s journey. I use to think I was a BILLY BAD ASS in my younger day , not any more. Time, age , wisdom, and Gods loving grace HAS helped me be a more hummable person at heart. Life’s experiences have taught me how to be more acceptable of the things that I can’t change.
Stay Positive… Stay Focused… Stay Prayerful…
Do you have any advice to help me keep it moving ? Or share a story?
