I find it hard to express my feelings. I also have issues with expressing my emotions. When I look over my past conversations and relationships I wish that I could ” Have a do over” I think it is important to articulate to other people your true feelings and intentions in all situations, though for some it is easy and for others not so much. We don’t want to go around hurting each others feelings all the time. But the true reality for me is I rather know how you really feel. We all need brutal honesty every now and again. Does humiliation build character?
When the words don’t come out right. When I believe the words I speak were the correct ones, they were not. When I’m angry or upset my emotions allow me to walk into situations that I know, with in myself, are as if I’m Walking into an emotional fire , and I know I’m going to get burned, but I WALKED RIGHT on in anyway. . HINDSIGHT. WOW
Yesterday was like I was living in a whole of despair. And I woke up this morning the same way. And life has not stopping to Waite for me. My hair is thinner , still yet, this morning. It’s still cold outside. Their is much for me to do and accomplish. But I have no desire to disappoint myself today. I have no desire to cry today. I have to push forward because life can not stop for me. I know That I will fell at all that I do, So what the Hell. Dammed if I do and Damned if I don’t. I don’t want to change the way that I have perceived my life for the last 40 years But it’s time to stop and use my hindsight moments, to allow myself and those that have been placed I my path, the space to help me grow and fertilize my roots. I’m prepared today knowing that I will fell until I succeed.
I will be so Happy when to sun comes out and warm up these cold days. Once all the old branches have been discarded and the sun comes out and warm up my earth. Ill be glad when the leaves starts to bloom new leaves and began shedding the old. I like being outside under the sun. I have been planning to grow some tomato’s and potatoes. The day will come when I will have no worries or mistruths. hahaha
On CNN I was listening to an interview with Coby Bryant and I was not a fan of his as a basketball fan. I am a Houstonian so the Rockets are my team. He was asked a question about what ifs and hypotheticals. Mr. Bryan responded by saying that he doesn’t think in thoughs terms. Those words stuck out to me.He appeared to be a personable person with a big heart , I liked that. I will add that to my daily to do list. Stop speculating with what if? There is also a person on face book I started following that re-introduce note taking and writing list. These are some of the tools I’m using to get on a schedule. Its been very helpful.
Today I am unhappy with the way I have tried to be for others. Tiered of trying to be what is expected of others. Saddened by believing in hopes and dreams is no longer working for me. So I think , No I Know , that all I can do is be. This day too shall pass
Stay Positive… Stay Focused… Stay Prayerful… WHY
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hello fellow blogger. I do get a lot of extra stuff. I wish I could understand how. Any who, thanks for viewing my writing. Some days are easier than others to articulate my thought and put pen to paper. I write most of my thoughts before I post them and its helpful for me.