choices and chances

When I believe I’m happy and satisficed with my life I find myself saddened because of my life. I use to wish I was a fish in a big blue ang green ocean. My zodiac sign are the two fish, the Pieces, I have had a fish tank in my place from the time I was 20 up until my first 2nd year of becoming a truck driver, with my husband. I had to dismantle my tanks when I started driving over the road because I couldn’t get anyone to take care of my fish and my tanks while being away from home, sometimes for 8 weeks at times. Even though We had adult children living at home. My girls and I love any activity that involves water like playing in the rain, swimming, beach vacations, fishing etc.. I find it interesting that on most of my birthdays rain has accompanied me. In the last 8 years , no matter what state was in, on my birthday it rained. I love that.

Now however in this new phase of my life I want to be a tree. I don’t care what kind, since I can’t tell one kind of tree from another tree anyway, unless it has fruit on it. I just want to be strong and have strong roots with a thick trunk. I want to be able to shed away my faults and grow new heavy stronger branches with heavy, colorful leaves and flowers. To be able to allow shade from my tall branches that reach to the sun. To give the comfort of shade to other living things when needed and allow in sunshine to nurture my roots. To stand in the still of a windless day, and sway and play on a windy day, as my leaf’s and branches blow away. It is a good thing to shed the old and grow into the new, I believe. To stand still in the rain as the moisture replenish the soil and feed my roots. I WANT TO BE SO STRONG THAT I CAN STAND STILL AND INDOR ALL of life’s happenings and changes around me, just a strong, solid tree with nothing but time to grow. AND JUST BE.

A TREE ” YA THATS WHAT I WANT TO BE”

WHEN WILL JUST BEING BE ENOUGHT?

When will the Pease and Joy come? The kind you don’t have to struggle for, the peace that comes from deep within. Peace that I believe only God Can Supply TO a tired sole, if we choose to ask for it. When He gives it , will we be happy or will we choose something else?

Stay Positive … Stay Focused… Stay Prayerful….

what do you choose be?